Tuesday, December 18, 2018

POEM OF 97

Rush of water
Brown and dark
Wave after wave
Taring the ground apart

Thoughts of what tomorrow might bring
More of what we don't need
Or is it what we need
We just can't see

Waters cold and cruel
Grow as the move
The emotionless flow of water where will it go

Blame the water for the destruction
When you lived in its way
Maybe it returns to reclaim its home

Strong of heart
Weak of soul
What we don't know
Be the ugly truth we hold

The cold water threats
The closer it gets
So many regrets
Closer and closer to the door
Bag after bag of sand
Will the wall hold

Without a fight, you will not go
Now it is a lack you own

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 1997 - 2018


Monday, December 10, 2018

SO COOL

You are so cool
In the things that you do
You are so cool
There is no one like you

I am a fool
To think I could be that cool
If I try too
It would embarrass you

You are so cool
From the heals on your boots
You are so cool
To the way you wear your suits

I got to prove
That my talents are worthy of you
Got to try
To make my own style

You are so cool
In the way that you walk
You are so cool
In the way that you talk

I got to hear
The words that inspire the mind
I got see
Your dove fly high

You are so cool
No one can be like you
You are so cool
These purple owmens are you


©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018







Thursday, November 29, 2018

WHITE TEARS

Hate and fear looking for attention
Believing everything told to you without any proof
Their power comes from your lack of education

White tears are colored with ignorance

Hate does not make you a hero
Just make you lose your job
Now your a zero

White tears are colored with fear

Other people that don't look like you
Not living the way you think they should
Call someone to correct them is what you do

White tears are colored with arrogance

Don't get your way have a tantrum
When no one thinks you in the right
Got nothing to say now you play the victim

White tears are colored with hate

Mother prays for her son to see another day
They can't respect an open hand shoot him is the only plan
Now the proof of innocence is on the victim when their voice is dead

These tears of pain and love are clear

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018




Monday, November 19, 2018

DRISHTI

Something is hidden inside me
Something that would make me free
Living in the struggle of dreams and reality

Somehow you looked deep within
Like I am a long lost friend
With drishti in your eyes

What is in me I can't see
What I really can be
I have to convince only me

You see my third eye
Like a grandmother at a visiting child
With drishti in your eyes

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018

SUGAR WELL

Caught up in my own thoughts
Look to the internet to get out of this loneliness
Why do I let my mind turn to it

Sugar well
Some were between heaven and hell
She got the sweets she tries to sell

My mind tries to play the master
In the vice, I am captured
Causing my own pain with the click of every page

Sugar well
Am I caught in a spell
No matter how high it always hurts when I fell

Why confess my sins just to prove how blessed I am
Down in the depths without a friend
Under my own power, I pull myself up from the depths

Sugar well
If love is fraudulent how do I tell
In these feelings, I do not want to dwell

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018


Saturday, November 10, 2018

WISH

Wish I could slice through life and take only what I like
Learn from my wrongs and leave them behind
Take my rights and always live in the light

Never wanting to walk in darkness just want to walk the path of kindness
Never wanting to win a fight just want to be blessed
Just want to feel the high of life

Wish I could pick the nostalgic moments of life take only what I like
Let them play over and over in my mind wouldn't that be fine
Leaving everyone wondering where I have been

Never had desires for royal things just simplicity that never will spoil
Never had artificial high never was apart of those circles to let me try
Just want to experience life

Wish I could have confidence turn my back on negative words from so-called friends
Forget the moments of regret don't let anyone live in my head without paying rent
I must like myself before letting anyone in

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018




Monday, October 22, 2018

PANCAKES AND GHEE

There are two venomous words that came out of the 20th century.
One of these words for some people has been carved down to an acronym no matter the context it rarely used. Others use it as a term of enduement in the hope to remove its venom. No matter the context it still maintains its sting.

The other one became lost in litterateur.
In the early years of the 20th century, this word back then had the same sting and venom contained in it as the N-word does today. Not much isn’t said of it today like much of many stains of history we are embarrassment by, so we push it out of the way, and turn our backs. Instead of facing it and use it to learn from the mistakes of our ancestors and strive to accomplish true peace in our world. 

This word came innocently enough from a children’s book called Little Black Sambo in what I researched it wasn’t intended to be published at all.
It was written by Helen Bannerman in the mid-1890s. She wrought it for her kids to entertain them on there long journeys across India where they lived with her husband William who worked at the India Medical Services in Sothern India. She showed it to a friend and that person took to back to London and had it published.

Langston Hughes the inspiration for this Busboys and Poets said I paraphrase, that it is a children’s story to teach white children to make fun of black children. But the original story has nothing racist about.
Here I tell you a quick summary of the story.

Sambo was a little boy whose parents got him an outfit that he was proud of. It was a red shirt, blue pants with blue shoes and a green umbrella. So, he went for a walk to show it off and along the way, he was threatened by four different tigers each one threatening to eat him alive if he does not give them something.  He gave each tiger a part of his outfit one with the pants another with the shirt. But the other two could not figure out about the shoes and the umbrella. The one with the shoes wore on its ears and the one with the umbrella carried it with its tale. When the tigers saw each other that stared to argue who looked the best. Then they started to fight and dropped what each of them had they fought so hard they turned into ghee (clarified butter). So, Sambo gathered up is outfit and him and his dad collected the ghee and took it home and his mother maid pancakes.

Nothing remotely racist the only one who should be offended by this is Tigers.
    
It wasn’t until it came to America and was manipulated into a racial slur. But that is not what I want to talk about. I want to talk about the true origins of the name.  

The origins of it come from the Hindi language and it is pronounced SHAMBO and in one of the other many languages of India Telugu, it is pronounced SAMBO. 

They say in India Shiv Shambho which means Great God, the auspicious one.


PANCAKES AND GHEE

Sambo bullied by controversy
His name appropriated by a culture to destroy history
To shame our ancestor's genealogy
Why use a child's name to create shame

Pancakes and ghee
About to have breakfast with Bhenji
Free to be everything even family

Sambo bullied by history
Another culter steels his story
Blamed for the generations pain
His story never told the same way again

Pancakes and ghee
About to have breakfast with Bhaeeji
Free to be everything even community

Sambo bullied by society
So offended they grabbed pancakes for the mouths of children
Now this is where education ends and ignorance begins
Hate starts to spreads, even between friends

Pancakes and ghee
About to have breakfast with Mataji
She is so much wiser than me

Sambo bullied by a stereotype
Worked so hard for the things he liked
A green umbrella, red shirt, blue pants with shoes to match
All the way home he would dance

Pancakes and ghee
About to have breakfast with Dadaji
Knowing the inner strength is the way to be free

Sambo bullied from the left and right
Four tigers with black and orange strips come out to fight
He gave them all he had so he could hide
So they had a parade to show who is most fashionable

Pancakes and ghee
About to have breakfast with khaas dost
Sharing is what life is all about

Sambo bullied by the things he felt
The Tigers fight over their own pride
As everyone fooled by their own lies
No longer is freedom yours or mine

Pancakes and ghee
About to have breakfast with me
So many pancakes I only have three

Sambo no longer bullied by life
Turn off the outside to see the inner light
No material things can take the place of peace, love, and purity
Freedom should never be a dream

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018











THE REDEMPTION OF SILENCE

No one appreciates you when you are not there
Noise and confusion everywhere
They don’t know you are still here

They should take time to look inside
You're not to blame for what they hide
This is the redemption of silence
In them, it is something they can find

People travel to distant places to find you
Not aware you are there all the time
But still, it is something more than their pride

They need to start feeling the stillness behind their eyes
There is nothing to make them feel so high
That is the redemption of silence
In them, it is something they can’t hide

People create their own spaces
Walls and carpets, alter of remembrance
With pictures of ancient faces

They need you more than you need them
You are the warming comfort of a friend
This is the redemption of silence
You are always there even in the end

You are the distant breeze
You are the echo of peace
You are what I feel no what I hear

The mumble of untalented boys
They don't know the value of who you are
That is the redemption of silence
There are no words to your song

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018

JANKI DADI'S SMILE

Dadi ji
So much wiser than me
At 103 so much freer than I could ever be
One day I wish to see what she sees

Janki Dadi's smile
Lights up the darkest room
Peace, love, and purity is always her mood
Always simple always true

Dadi ji
So much from her, I need
Om Shanti in the verse of three
Reminding me who I should be

Janki Dadi's smile
Comes from the drishti in her eyes
Wile loving tears come to mine
Wanting to be by her side

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018




Friday, October 19, 2018

CARIBBEAN PRINCESS

Why am I waiting for you when you never put your eyes on me
Where you blind to my reality and what you really need
This tree isn't meant for you to climb so don't even try

Caribbean Princess
I never got that first kiss never got to feel any bliss
Curibian princess
You saw something in me I didn't. Now I am too good for your forgiveness

To much pride to lie to you even when you sat at my side and just smiled
What do you expect me to think? I can't be drunk when I don't even drink
 Pressing your kneen next to mine was that your invitation to a lie

Caribbean Princess
Friendship is meaningless when you think you are better than all the rest
Caribbean Princess
I saw something in you that you didn't. Now we don't even speak

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018



Wednesday, August 29, 2018

ORIGINAL SOUL

Many years and many miles
Traveling with the scares of life
Just to find a home of flesh and bone

A light of peace and purity
It's intentional essence you can feel
As it passes from one to another
Feel the original soul

Flying higher than a million doves
Its true service is the spreading of true love
From shore to shore from the hights to down low
It is for everybody to know

A light of kindness and forgiveness
It does not exclude me or you
It isn't something you can hold only karma can control
Be an original soul

My personal rapture is my path to the light
Kindness is my religion no need for complicated traditions
It is my who suffocated my dreams, It is me that wone five dollars in the lottery
Nothing mystical floating over me, my mind wanders free

A light inside of me pure energy
The passage of time it holds more precious than silver and gold
The origins of peace and love freedom in the sun
I am an original soul

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018







Friday, August 3, 2018

PUSH BACK

These tracks of resistance start in the past
Truth is the fact a lie is a crack that breaks this nation's back
Hate has taken the place of love peace is more than a shot of a gun

Confused on what to do so much good we can do
Pray and meditate for a new day in the grave the uneducated will lay
Push Back white or black got take the power back
Push Back do we really want to live in the past

The path of history scared with blood and tears
Truth has its own fear reclaim that pain will make us great
Beaten for who you are as if you were born on Mars

Confused on what to do so much good we can prove
Wanting so much attention, call the police on you just to play the fool
Push Back right or wrong we can still hear the doves cry in the song
Push Back diversity is the way to think


Sunday, July 22, 2018

LEMON TOUCH

Did not know you would criticize me so much
Told you all my secrets thought it was only you that I could trust
Your words are like a knife; you found my pain.
Will you please go away

You got that lemon touch.
Sour to the taste stinging to a paper cut
Will my love sweeten you up.
Your lemon touch

When I meet you, your eyes took me by surprise.
Your smile made me feel this was my time.
You asked me out, so I followed.
Didn't know a few months later, you would ask me to go.

You got that lemon touch.
Sour words I wish I never heard
That is just the games of a childish girl.
Your lemon touch

Your vitamin C, I thought, was all I need
This friendship didn't cure the scurvy in me.
Was this all a dream relationship is a mystery
No more conversation that ends in please, please, please

You got that lemon touch.
Not enough sugar in this world that will sweeten you up
Some things in life you just can't trust
Your lemon touch

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018

Saturday, July 21, 2018

GOLDEN AGE

Living outside of my own dreams feeling so free
No desires just free-living it is beyond what you can see
It is my own world my own reality

No need for faith no need to pray
Living life in the golden age
No need for religion no need to be forgiven
When living in the golden age

Peace is not a page out of ancient history
It is a living thing inside of everybody
Close your eyes and see everything you would ever need

No need for rituals no need for sacred wine
Living life in the golden age
No need for the word that changes it's meaning
When living in the golden age

Love is an emotional verb
It is much more than just between a boy and a girl
If you don't know you must not be from this world

No need to touch just to make things fun
Living in the golden age
No need to walk when you can fly
When living in the golden age

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018


Sunday, July 15, 2018

MYSTICAL MYSTERY

We all have dreams awake or asleep they are secrets that we keep
At night in them, I roam wishing I could call them home
Desire the fire of inspiration just want to feel a poetic sensation

The purple omens got me superstitious thinking through all my wishes
Don't need all the trinkets to show my appreciation or what kind of fan I am
Just want to leave it to be a Mystical Mystery and let my mind free

There is not much more you know as I wonder the artistic process
Don't tell me pixy dust is just a lie, and all this time Peter Pan could really fly
I didn't come all this way the for memories to fade away

The purple omens got me thinking what are the words I will be dreaming
Don't have to prove what I am feeling from that funky groove
Just want to leave it to be a Mystical Mystery and just feel it for me

The purple philosophy has no description all you need to do is just listen
Start your own style, love your self before anyone lies about you
You can taste the sweet cream of your own dream

The purple omens got me inspired what is the next world that will fuel the fire
Want to keep these feelings want to hear the sounds that keep me dreaming
Just want to leave it to be a Mystical Mystery always in my dreams

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018

Monday, June 25, 2018

MINNESOTA RAIN


Chased by the clouds while searching for that inspirational sound
Don't know how I feel as the rains come down
Reverences shouldn't be this loud

Minnesota rain, if it stops, will I feel the same way as I do today
Traveled a long way to feel inspiration instead of pain

This is the price I paid to be lied at I hope this is not just another tourist trap
Just want to be in the audience and clap even if I can't dance
Putting away my fears me and the doves have different tears

Minnesota rain comes down at night hope it ends with the morning light
In my sleep, I have paisley dreams and the hope to see so many things

The Avenue I will take a walk so many people waiting to hear the art
Passing the square still hear his voice in the air
Dylan might have many colors but sound like no other

Minnesota rain pass me by just want a little more time
Just want to feel the purple omens this is where inspiration is home

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018




GENDER BENDER

What you think you are is never what you want to be
You try to skip the pain because you don't like the team
Living a lie can be a shame now you want to reset the game

A taker never a giver just a gender bender
Life is forever God is love and it is a forgiver

Evolution and creation is random so why don't you blame them
Genetics choose you but you think you have something to prove
Something different inside you think it is something new

When it is not like take off a sweater just a gender bender
Want to change your style with the cut of a knife

Want to reshuffle the cards because you don't like who you are
Wanting some attention but it is not the kind your getting 
You want to be free by skipping all the menstruating dreams

Want to make a change gender bender
It will never change your heart it doesn't make you any friendlier

Life doesn't get any better no matter who you are
The chooses you make you got to be strong
Only God can tell you what is right or wrong

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018




Monday, June 4, 2018

HOTTER

Why do you pick on me like I am a scab on your knee
Pick, Pick, Pick until I bleed
Band-aids are not free

If I am so different from you
Why am I the one that has to move
After all those things you do

I try to back away but you call me to play
I don't want to live my life this way
Time makes things fade will it do the same to my hate

212 degrees is the boiling point of water
For me, it does not get any hotter



MOTHER'S BREATH


Life is filled with regrets at every turn we make that second guest
Sometimes it comes down to life or death even when you think you past the test
The condition of love is an action or an intent a moment you never to forget

When things are not at there best you just want to feel Mother's Breath
Like a baby just want to suckle that breast to be held in her arms is the best

Believe what you want to believe the uneducated fruit is sometimes sweet
Freedom is everyone right that is why some people fight, and some will just hide
Arrested for believing over the border is a better life, who is it that lied?

When outside all there is fear what you need to feel near is Mother's Breath
Never to old to be held in loving arms there your protected from all harm

A reflection the best parts love is never far from the heart
Living out parental dreams seeing things they will never see
Sometimes you have to stand stronger and be a bit stronger

A connection that spans from earth to mars that feel is never far, Mother's Breath
At night will you see the same stars home is where you are






Tuesday, May 15, 2018

BLIND LIE

How high can you get before you look down and fall
Why do you hide when you claim you have it all
The truth may hurt but when you say it, it will not burn

Blind lie
You got the shovel you know how deep you can go
Blind lie
You got the rope the more you get you will still not touch the floor

Why do you lie?
Because it makes your ego sweet as pie
Why do you lie?
Because you want to see someone die

Blind lie
What is in it for you something shiny and new
Blind lie
You want to impress everyone are you having fun

Everyone is counting your lying words
When called out on your lack of facts
In  your mind, you start to squirm
You play the victim as you follow this path

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018

Thursday, May 3, 2018

BROWN MAN

Lost in your own world never thinking you're the fool
Everyone loving you but are you really that cool

Brown man
Do you listen to what you say before it comes out of your brain
Brown man
Denoising the many generations of pain trying to make up for it the next day

Bought into a load of white tricks when did you make that switch
What is in it for you what is there for you to prove

Brown man
Clam what you say take your own blame
Brown man
There is more to life than your own fame

Pandering to the tower-man's ego
Is selling out your soul even when you've been told

Brown man
You forgot the ancestors paved a path for you
Brown man
Soon that path will be blocked to you

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018

 







Monday, April 23, 2018

THE NAME IS GOD

Your name never said the same way
With a pure heart, the meaning will never change
Ancient beyond the hands of time
Search past your own mind the name you will find

The name is God
Is the same no matter how you say it
Peace and love is divine goodness

The name is Jehovah
No need to say it over and over
You are a soul, and he knows you

The name is Dios
Your need for him comes and goes
He is always there even when you don't think so

The name is Kami
In your heart, you can believe anything
Even when freedom isn't a real thing

The name is Theos
No one can tell you what you already know
Why give a man all the control

The name is Shén
If you can't believe, you can't forgive
Remembering everything you did

The name is Shiva
A point of light I am like you
Manmanabhave is the way I think of you

The name is Allah
Same as it was when you were born
The same forevermore

No one has a claim to the name.
When all over the world it is said in different ways


©Copyright Thomas J Dooley 2018








5 MINUTES

5 Minutes -
As 22 years of life flashes by
No time to celebrate the new life

Life is a field with broken promises
Is forgiveness one of them

5 Minutes -
As a mother wonders why
Why doesn't the tears bring back life

To live is everyone's right
No one should choose to die

5 Minutes -
No time for quick decisions
No choice but to blame the victim

Could we forgive this
Should we forgive this

5 Minutes - 
No time to plan for the next day
No time to plan to pass away

Is there words for healing 
What are the words we are needing

5 Minutes -
Alone in the dark
As the pain burns through the heart

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018







Friday, April 6, 2018

OWE U

Thought of u today
Just like I did yesterday
Can't believe ur gone
Without one last song

Just wanted to know u
Feel everything u do
Wishing I could be as cool as u
Giving so much inspiration
I feel that I owe u

I feel the steel strings
Pearce my fingers tips
Felling the pain just to play like u
To my self, it is something I have to prove

Listen to your bootleg again today
The only way to pay is to learn to play
The callus is being as the skin is pealing
Never playing the same note
I know that I owe u


VICE

Always in a fight with my self
Because of the good or bad, I've felt
The thought goes through my head
Just want to taste it and feel it again

Vice, wrong or right
Always have to think twice
Temptation tells you is it nice
Just one more try
Now I am caught in the vice

Had control I could see my goal
What will it be when I am old
A seed will never grow
If you don't plant it in the soil

Vice, right or wrong
Fighting the thoughts all day long
Proving to my self I can be strong
Temptation gets in my head
Now I am caught in its vice

All the good work I have done
Gave it up for a moment of fun
Just to get back where I been I have to run
No more moments in the sun

Vice, wrong or right
Just want to live my life
Nothing wrong with being nice
Don't want to lose got keep my pride
Fighting my way out of this vice


©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018




Saturday, March 24, 2018

WORSHIP U

They lied to U
Telling U what isn't true
But all time dressing and acting like U
Never feeling what U went through

Worship U
From your eyes to your thigh
Worship U
Just for that physical high

U know who U are
U're beyond the sun, moon, and stars
Not a slave but still counted as a possession
Ride you towards a momentary destination

Worship U
From U'r mind to the life U provide
Worship U
Never given a chance but wait to ask for a dance

Religion cover U up
Because man has no control over himself
The government shut U up
Tell you how to fix U'r stuff

Worship U
Creative fule U are the muse
Worship U
Man wants to be the same without the pain

How can U come from man
When a man comes from U
Evolution has much to prove
As chemistry happens inside U

Worship U
Knowing so much about growing
Worship U
To be a Goddess she got to be a God

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018







Saturday, March 17, 2018

GRACE

Butterscotch completion she is a Cleopatra dream
Dark colored eyes I wish in them my reflection can be seen
In life, we all have unfulfilled needs

Her name is Grace
Such a beauty can't describe her face
Her smile could heal a broken mirror
The thought of her left me in tears

If she was the sun I would go blind
She is one of a kind
Want to be loved 2 the 9's

Her name is Grace
To describe a beautiful day is to say her name
Even the clouds in the sky spell out her name

The thought of her takes me to many places
That is only in my imagination
Caught in my mental passions

Her name is Grace
All I asked where she would like to go
Just thirty minutes down the road

A Grace I would never get to know

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018





Monday, February 19, 2018

TRADITIONAL HATE

Lie so much you don't know words still hurt
Lay in the mud it will become dirt
On your skin, those words are burned

Traditional hate
You want to be the bully
But act like the victim when things don't go your way

You came out of the shadows
Without your mask
Lost your job who got the last laugh

Traditional hate
You want to be the king
Without education, you don't know anything

Think you got the solution to tragedy
Thoughts a prayer do nothing
From you, it is just blasphemy

Traditional hate
Don't even know who maid the food on your plate
Guess, it is the same people you love to discriminate

You want it all even  a wall
To protect us from those out there
But what about those who are in here

Traditional hate
Failing in so many ways
As the NRA pays

How much money do you need
To see what the people really need
But your children get everything they need

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018

Sunday, January 7, 2018

I WANT MY SILENCE BACK

I want my silence back
I want to see the deepest part of me
To stop the distruction
To give a warm hug to the emotions
Rediscover the fire inside of me

I want my silence back
I want to move forward to stay on track
To stop the bully of my mind that I hide
To find what has been locked away along time
Rediscover the dream and this time let it lead me

I want my silence back
I want to feel compleat let no one defined me
To stop my inward self hate
To find that moment only I can create
Rediscover that first glimps of light

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2018