EXILED TO SILENCE

These feelings I feel are like an attack

Excluded from living life wondering what I lack

What do I say when I am always told I am to blame

Exiled to silence in search of some kindness

As my mind is lost to the wilderness

Where is there any kind of friends

Hearing the call with no voices

On a path with no choices

To a destination that is of my own creation

Exiled to silence in search of some forgiveness

Feeling the blame for every mess

Where is the end to all this mental stress

Alone in this silence, why am I so different?

Living in mental shame hiding is no longer a game

It is a means to avoid negative criticism 

Exiled to silence in search of some peace

In the kings garden, I nap in the swing

To feel my mind relax so free

I dream of India's night sky with a moon so bright

Were Prakashmani reflection can be seen

That is where I wish I could be

©Copyright Thomas J Dooley 2021

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I DON'T MATTER ANYMORE

Alone in this room with nothing to do

Thinking of the outside and the direction of my own life

Sitting at the window watching the world pass by

Thinking what are my dreams what are my goals

Questioning everything I know and am told

Finding a direction for me the soul

I don't matter anymore. 

Sitting here behind silent doors.

My values faded some time, never to exist.

My path is paved with cobblestones. 

Through the night and the day, I walk it alone

To a destination, I will never know

What am I doing here at this point in time?

Believing my own lies hearing them whispering in my mind

Am I held back by pride or the unspoken lies

I don't matter anymore.

Don't know when I am wrong.

Until it is wrong that I do

It is my choice to care when no one is there

But who is there for a moment singing my praise

Soon they just fade without a word to say

Searching for a place of comfort to rest the mind

Confidences is just a dried out seed never to grown in me

Just to dry up in the weeds

I don't matter anymore.

Waiting for a call that will never come

For some, there are conditions for love

Many take to the streets calling for justice and peace.

Individuals each one question am I truly free.

Marching in remembrance of the forgotten son

Insults are thrown sometimes, bruising the heart.

The ignorance hides the pain, just wanting to claim some fame

Even Karen hides thinking that she has a right to your life 

I don't matter anymore.

Behind this closed-door locked with the key of silence

A silence that is louder than any noise

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2021

WE HIDE

Hunger hides in the schools

Hunger hides in the uneducated

Hunger hides in a child's mind

 

Why should this be a political fight?

We are not asking for a feast, just a little something to eat.

 

Sadness hides in the home

Sadness hides in the room

Sadness hides in the man on the streets

 

Don't want to run in your circle anymore.

Want to take that straight line leave it all behind

 

Pain hides in the head

Pain hides in the lie

Pain hides in the woman's box

 

Change your name change your life game.

Want to remove this pain just to replace it with a different kind of pain

 

Ignorance hides in the tip of a pen

Ignorance hides in the words of a little girl

Ignorance hides in the toothless follower

 

Red hat, red mask dyed with the blood of the virus of millions 

Showing off how privilege you can be when it is only attention you need

 

Love hides behind newborn eyes.

Love hides in giving without a witness. 

Love hides in a kiss unconditional.

 

More than a touch more than activity

Life, designed to be free

 

Hope hides in a morel decision

Hope hides in the silences before the dawn

Hope hides in the gift shop of the Obama Center

 

The last few dollars on a losing lotto ticket

Has more hope than what a preacher asks for in faith

 

Peace hides within the mind; the questions of life are inside.

Peace hides in the silence of nature  

Peace hides in the forgiveness of oneself

 

The things we search for we hide

The meaning to these feelings we hide 

All that we hide has become a part of life.

 

©Copyright Thomas Dooley 2020

 

DISTRESS

Wishes will never come true

When what you wish for isn’t next to you

You know what you want

But to show your love would be too much

Always trying to hide

Your feelings inside

Wanting to express your deep-hearted tenderness

They don’t understand your sadness

When life has you in distress

With all the love in your heart

You’re holding it back

Knowing it will soon explode

But you still keep hold

While it rips at your soul

But you still keep it inside

Is that my lie?


©Copyrights 1993 Thomas Dooley